I caught my daughter in a lie and called her on it. She keeps her data off at times and I know this so sent a picture of various stuff left here in dec and carrot cake muffins and fresh bread, gifts, Xmas candy, canned goods, her sheet pan etc}. We have gone for lunch since Xmas but we don't see a lot of each other. We didn't before Mikes passing so it's not new. 

Anyway, along with the MMS text, I sent a plain text msg that said "Can you drop in to pick up?" on the 7th Jan. Yesterday she msged 3x in a row "me?" "Today" "Cinnamin buns?"

Now I was going to let it slide. I usually do. I actually started to.. I wrote "they are carrot and delicious but you are too late. There are preserves I meant to give, and kids have chocolate and candy canes. Your sheet pan etc. There is fresh bread still". (I had made more)

And she wrote: "haha turned on data"...."thanks anyway"...."ok maybe I'll swing by before or after groceries. Just on a walk".

She was so flippant in that latest slew of texts I said: "I sent msg separate from image, it'll have to be another time".  As I had an hour to go to work.

Anyway, before Mikes passing I would have done everything in my power to just have her come to get the stuff or dropped it off myself and keep the peace. Actually, I would have driven and got Mike to take it to the door. But I have tried and tried with her and (through the years and now feel like she could give a little now that I'm alone) I just hope her daughter doesn't do the same with her when she's in a time of ...great need. 

I'm not trying to have her or anyone feel sorry for me... At least I hope not! I'm sure that's not it. Grief is lonely but I think it's uncomplicated loneliness whereby without having ppl around i don't have to deal with emotions, drama, ppl,   It makes me so unsure of intensions when ppl are around. I feel paranoid at times. I try to please people too much.